Category Archives: hope/despair

O Green World

Sorrow is my name. Melodramatic as that might seem, it is true enough. I met a girl and lost a girl. No, that isn’t true. I haven’t lost her but I feel that I have. Distance and clusterfaffs being obstacles … Continue reading

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I, Jackass

For many years I have striven to hide my intelligence. In my experience, people seem to mistrust those that are smarter than them. I should quantify my usage of the word ‘smarter’. It is just the best word that I … Continue reading

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Love That Is Unbreakable

I have a problem with love and with the way it is depicted in the media. Or rather with it on the television. Maybe I just have a problem because I want love? Perhaps it is because nobody loves me? … Continue reading

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Unloved and Alone (Not a Hith)

The thing with being unloved is not the fact that it hurts, it is the watching others who are happily in love (or lust). For a while now I have come to the realisation that nobody will love me. Leastways … Continue reading

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Last Christmas

I really feel that this might be my last Christmas. I hope so. I am just so tired of everything. I am getting too old for this. I will be thirty-five next year and I am still single, still alone … Continue reading

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Leper! Unclean!

I am the human equivalent of a wet wipe in that I am often flushed away when people are done with me. Am I being harsh on myself. Perhaps but I think I have just cause to think this. Finding … Continue reading

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Donald Trump, America’s Folly?

America has voted. And Donald Trump, much to the surprise of America and the world and Donald Trump himself, is President. Yup, Marty McFly failed to get the sports almanac back. So what does it mean? First, shushing all the … Continue reading

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