Category Archives: existence

Dawn Chorus

Nearly every single morning I am rudely awakened by crows dancing on the roof tiles. Not much fun. There I am asleep and suddenly the entire crow population of Exeter decides to hold an impromptu rehearsal for the all-crow performance of … Continue reading

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I, Jackass

For many years I have striven to hide my intelligence. In my experience, people seem to mistrust those that are smarter than them. I should quantify my usage of the word ‘smarter’. It is just the best word that I … Continue reading

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Gay or Lesbian, Lets Call the Whole Thing Off

Gay, straight, lesbian, homosexual, heterosexual, transgender, oh my! Or you can divide it into two: straight and hetero-muggle. But unless you want to be slapped by the whole non-straight community, I wouldn’t advise it. There are plenty of names for … Continue reading

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I Bought a Broom

The other day I went to a local shop in order to buy a broom. Yeah, I know, rock’n’roll lifestyle, right? I go in, do the dance of the seven veils at the girl on the till who looked like she … Continue reading

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Secret Squirrel’s Avoidance (plus random poem)

Someone recognised me the other day. Somebody I went to school with, twentyish years ago. This surprised me because I didn’t recognise him. And because he looked so old. Maybe ten years older than me. Not that I am old. … Continue reading

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Love That Is Unbreakable

I have a problem with love and with the way it is depicted in the media. Or rather with it on the television. Maybe I just have a problem because I want love? Perhaps it is because nobody loves me? … Continue reading

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Sound of Silence

It is a curious feeling to be alone by choice. I am not talking about being alone due to people not wanting to be around you. I know how that feels. That feels different. I am not talking about not … Continue reading

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