Category Archives: confused

Gay or Lesbian, Lets Call the Whole Thing Off

Gay, straight, lesbian, homosexual, heterosexual, transgender, oh my! Or you can divide it into two: straight and hetero-muggle. But unless you want to be slapped by the whole non-straight community, I wouldn’t advise it. There are plenty of names for … Continue reading

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Secret Squirrel’s Avoidance (plus random poem)

Someone recognised me the other day. Somebody I went to school with, twentyish years ago. This surprised me because I didn’t recognise him. And because he looked so old. Maybe ten years older than me. Not that I am old. … Continue reading

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Love That Is Unbreakable

I have a problem with love and with the way it is depicted in the media. Or rather with it on the television. Maybe I just have a problem because I want love? Perhaps it is because nobody loves me? … Continue reading

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“…including other men”

Before she disappeared from my life, apropos of nothing, she said, “I can talk to other people, including other men.” Why apropos of nothing? Because I never once tried to stop her talking to anyone else, men included. I couldn’t … Continue reading

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Leper! Unclean!

I am the human equivalent of a wet wipe in that I am often flushed away when people are done with me. Am I being harsh on myself. Perhaps but I think I have just cause to think this. Finding … Continue reading

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More Black Than Orange

I wonder what the future holds. Presently I know that my future for the next hour involves sitting next to a girl who smells so much of cheese it is as if the air around her has solidified into stinky … Continue reading

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M Appeal

Friends with benefits? Lovers? Just friends? Hello, I am a male. Regard my confused mammal face when it comes to relationships. The list isn’t in order of preference by the way. It is the situation I found myself in once. … Continue reading

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