Category Archives: awkwardness

I, Jackass

For many years I have striven to hide my intelligence. In my experience, people seem to mistrust those that are smarter than them. I should quantify my usage of the word ‘smarter’. It is just the best word that I … Continue reading

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Secret Squirrel’s Avoidance (plus random poem)

Someone recognised me the other day. Somebody I went to school with, twentyish years ago. This surprised me because I didn’t recognise him. And because he looked so old. Maybe ten years older than me. Not that I am old. … Continue reading

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Avoidance/Resumption

I avoid people. Especially people I know. I also avoid people I don’t know but that is not the focus of this blog. If I see somebody I know, I have been known to duck into alleys, turn around and … Continue reading

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Chugga-Chugga-Chugga Goes the Bus

I wonder why people feel the need to get on a bus and sit right behind me when there is nobody else but me on the bus? Why do people do that? This is a bugbear that I have. What … Continue reading

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Birthday Wishes, You Can Keep. How I Hate the Presents

I hate birthdays. Not in general but just my own. The though of receiving presents and cards is so repugnant that I have gone out of my way to never reveal it to anyone. Some people have weaselled it out … Continue reading

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Don’t Touch Me

I don’t like to be touched. I can’t say why or when this started but it has been something that I have lived with for twenty or more years since I was 12/13. When I say I don’t like to … Continue reading

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Anxiety and Awkwardness

Sometimes I find myself reliving certain aspects of my life which are so cringeworthy that I almost would rather die than think about them again. Sadly my brain is in control and uses my emotions as some kind of whipping … Continue reading

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