Avoidance/Resumption

I avoid people.

Especially people I know.

I also avoid people I don’t know but that is not the focus of this blog.

If I see somebody I know, I have been known to duck into alleys, turn around and walk away, cross the street and on one occasion run screaming into oncoming traffic. That last one is a joke. See how funny I am?

Ahem, anyway, I do this and there is no good reason for doing so. I just do not want to meet up with people I once knew. Or currently know. This isn’t a blanket rule by the way, just a general rule.

I have always been like this, I think. When I work, I don’t socialize with my colleagues. Once I am out the door, that is it. I walk off with backwards looks. I made excuses not to attend Christmas parties, birthday parties, funerals etc. There are people at work who consider themselves my friends; they aren’t. It was the same with school, college, and university.

I am shunning human company I realise but it is not like I wish to be alone, I just do not want to spend my time with people who think they know me. Erm, yeah.

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About greebohobbes

All-round irritant, expert swordsman (loves lopping off the heads of ghouls), professional charlatan and outrageous wearer of black cocktail dresses...
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2 Responses to Avoidance/Resumption

  1. What you said is true – many people like to be on their own but nobody wants to be lonely. My daughter does the same as you when she is outside. It is interesting how different people have different reasons for being this way. Some are depressed, some autistic, some have social anxiety and others just don’t know why. Thank you for being so honest about how you are feeling – I am sure it will help many others.

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  2. BADWOLFOMEGA says:

    Avoidance: I was diagnosed with a condition that included avoiding people. Sometimes this is because if confronted I am honest and it goes wrong. I used to avoid birthdays and Christmas, as people got upset when I didn’t enthuse when they gave a gift. I even practised in the mirror the reaction I was supposed to give in order to prevent the upset it caused. If asked a question I would give an honest answer, than use discretion, this caused problems. As then I was accused of being as cold as ice.
    So to cut a long story short, I could tell the psychiatrist straight now, why I avoid people, because they cannot cope with my reaction. They either go in a fit of rage or have a mental breakdown and due to the words I use. Better to have a tag of avoidance than to have the responsibility of people saying they are broken, angry and upset due to ones choice of words

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