It is an odd thing knowing that your life is finite.
Our lives are all alike. No matter how long we may live, we all get the same: we all get a lifetime.
Of course we can decide to check out early if we so wish. And sometimes that is the best decision.
No doubt some of you may consider suicide a selfish act. It is. I absolutely agree. But consider this: is it more selfish than forcing someone to endure sixty years of misery just so that you won’t have to be inconvenienced by four or six years of sadness?
An odder thing is knowing that your life is purposeless, that your death would not cause many ripples. It is sad but it is a fact that not all of us have lives which are worth living. Suicide is not the answer but it is AN answer.
I wouldn’t recommend anyone to kill themselves. If you feel suicidal, see someone about it. You never have to face such thoughts alone, there is always hope. That is the best advice I, or anyone else, can give.
I am not good at taking advice. Especially my own.
In many ways, I think that this may be my last year on Earth. I hope it isn’t. I don’t want to die.